I inhale the murderous smoke,
the thought of you always on my mind,
and remember the times when you were mine.
my eyes begin the water,
the memories of you with her flash through my mind like photographs,
I recall the way your lips touched hers,
the way you pulled her in,
the way you looked in her eyes,
the way you smiled.
I remember how your face crumbled,
how you looked at me with shock,
how you ran at the speed of light,
how my face was an emotionless mask,
how all I could hear was roaring and ringing,
how you chased me till I lost the will to fight
how you screamed that she was nothing,
how you screamed that you loved me.
I almost believed you and fell for your compulsive lies,
I looked behind you and I saw her face.
a face full of sorrow heartache and pain
then I recall how you looked in her eyes.
then I knew everything we had was a lie.
so I let him go. to be with her.
cause even though he was a player I knew he loved her
and I know I loved him more,
I loved him so much that I had to let him go
I never said that it never hurt
it felt like being stabbed from ever corner to know he was never mine but hers.
but who am I to disrupt fate and what the fates have planned
maybe I’m fated to a long list of one night stands.