Was always so blind.
I didn’t comprehend…I didn’t see
That all I wanted and needed was right in front of me.
Waving, smiling, laughing, shouting , running, reaching
Fingertips nearly touching,
Hearts nearly close enough to perform a synchronise beat.
But eyes looking past,
All the things I couldn’t see.
I let them just walk right past while I focused on only me,
I can read you horror stories about being scared.
I can swim oceans,
jump off cliffs,
run for miles,
and it still wouldn’t be enough to tell you about the magnitude of fear.
Scared is when you realise your dad has left and your all alone
Scared is the crazy heart wrenching fear of the dark
All the things you don’t want to see, manifest and show themselves in the dark
Scared is blaming everyone but yourself
Scared is letting life pass you by
Scared is severing sacred connections.
Scared is almost saying ‘I do’
Scared is almost crying
Scared is almost showing emotion
Scared is almost saying ‘I like you too’
Scared is never moving
It’s never ending
It’s forever blind.
It’s forever losing.
It’s forever alone.